Saturday, December 18, 2010

That might be true today... but tomorrow is a different day.

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Promises, Promises

You promised me all the time in the world
We didn't have to do it all today
There was tomorrow
And the day after tomorrow
I should relax
We have all the time in the world

You promised me you'd grow up for me
So that someday we could get married
Have kids and a house with a library
We'd be together till our hair turned gray
I should have faith
You'd grow up for me

You promised me you would never leave me
That you would love me forever
You would be there for me
Always - no matter what
I shouldn't worry
You would never leave me

You promised me it was over with her
There was only me
I was all you could see
I was all that you would ever see
I shouldn't be paranoid
It was over with her

You promised me so many things
They were bright and beautiful
Like stars that filled my sky with hope
But always too far from reach
I shouldn't have been so gullible
They were only promises of so many, many things

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Maybe I just... need to put myself out there. Maybe I won't get lightning and magic every time but I have to move on.

I have to allow myself these little pieces of happiness wherever I might find them because I can't just live my life pining after someone that, despite some inexplicable connection... will never, ever be the one for me.

I need to get myself back, little by little.

"There are a hundred things she has tried to chase away the things she won't remember and that she can't even let herself thin...