"They who have been young once say that only youth can make youth forget itself; that life is a river bed; the water passes over it, sometimes it encounters obstacles and cannot go on, sometimes it flows unencumbered with a song in every bubble and ripple, but always it goes forward. When its way is obstructed it burrows deeply or swerves aside and leaves its impression, and whether the impress will be shallow and transient, or deep and searing, only God determines."
---from Arturo B. Rotor's 'Zita'

i know i'm being stupid.

it's too late for that now---way to late.

"The greatest happiness of life
Is the conviction that we are loved
Loved for ourselves, or rather,
Loved in spite of ourselves"
----Victor Hugo

It's so hard fighting ghosts when you never had a fighting chance to begin with.

Because I can't be anyone but me...

Everyday I lose a little bit more ground. And everyday it becomes more apparent that one day I'm going to be left standing on nothing.

How could you?

Mind and heart in total incongruency
Deaf to what logic is telling me
Blind to all I see

it's time to get a MOVE ON.

maybe it's you
maybe it's not

WHATEVER MAN.

screw that.